Team Sharon

This was our walk for ALS at our church for a sweet lady that is battling this disease! It was a perfect day for the walk and it was great bonding time with friends from the church.

A very big decision...

Okay this blog is for my non myspace readers because I have already blogged about this on there too...:)
I thought I had already made my decision about the whole baby thing, but it turns out Eddie really still wants another baby. So, I am going through the pros and cons in my head trying to make a decision. Here goes...
We will start with the pros...
#1. I love being a mom more that anything else in the world. I always wanted a whole house full of kids.
#2. Family is so important to me and the more there is to love the better!
#3. LeeAnn really wants to be a big sister. And I know she would be a great help with the baby and with her being older she would understand things better so there would be less jealousy.

And now the cons...
#1. Money of course. Babies are expensive and there is that matter of daycare for five years...
#2. We have a very little house and we can't afford to move to a bigger house. We are already crammed in like sardines as it is...It makes me think of the song called "Love grows best in little houses"
#3. Pregnancy sucks! And with my new job I couldn't miss work...I would have to go feeling like crap all of the time. And I know it could be different but it's not likely!
#4. LeeAnn is so independent and does things mostly for herself. Do we really want to start over with a baby who requires so much care and attention????

If anybody could offer some words of advice it would be most appreciated! Oh and lastly am I to freaking old to be thinking about this anyway????
Help me with suggestions PLEASE!

Here are a few pics of LeeAnn as a baby...nice reminder of how worth it it all is!

saying goodbye

Sometimes we don't know why things happen. As Christians we are taught that God has a reason for everything. But as humans we don't always understand his plan. My best friend in all the world lost her mom this past week. She was such a sweet lady. She always made me feel like I was a part of her family. I hadn't even known her for a full year but I sure did love her! Today was her funeral. It was a hard day especially for Kim and her brother. LeeAnn had a hard time with it too but was glad she got to go say goodbye to her. Sharon was wonderful with LeeAnn as well. As we were leaving the cemetary today LeeAnn looks up at me and says "Mommy, sometime soon can we come back and leave Sharon some flowers?" And I instantly started crying again. Just because it always amazes me at what a kind, loving girl I have raised. She saw that the other graves had flowers on them and wanted to leave Sharon some. And I told her my grandma was buried at the same cemetary and she said "We can visit your grandma too and leave her some flowers. I bet she would like that." Time flies by and Life is full of unexpected things. So, hold your family and friends close to you while you can. Give them lots of hugs and always remember to tell them you love them. We all get busy with work and our own lives and sometimes don't make time for things that really matter. I will never again take my family and friends for granted. We are only here until God thinks it's our time to go. I don't even know who all reads my blog but I want to take this time to say to all my family and friends....I love you guys with all my heart!

an update just for Ruth...

I don't even know if I have any readers other than Ruth, but since she has requested I update my blog I will do just that. Things are going pretty good for me right now. I am adjusting to my new job and I love it very much! I think I will fit in nicely there and I hope they let me stay! There are still things that I am learning but all in all I think I am doing good. I can't believe I have never gone out of that comfort zone to a new place...I am enjoying this job so much and I think I am really good at it...I would of never taken the job if they hadn't kind of insisted.

LeeAnn is doing well in school so far. She loves school. She is making new friends because her friends from last year are all in different classes. She still gets phone calls from her "best friend" though and they can talk for hours! Reminds me of me when I was younger.

We have spent lots of time with family lately. I saw some of both sides for Grandparents day. The kids had a blast! Aunt Pat got to come and she brought her really cool friend Sally. It was a really fun day. I have also been doing things with friends and that keeps me busy but it is so worth it. I have more friends now than I have ever had before! And they are just amazing to me! I am going to add some pics of last weekend! Enjoy Ruth my only reader...LOL

Spending time with Family

Well, we finally made it happen. The whole Bailey clan got together for dinner and fun at Becky's house last weekend. We had a lot of fun catching up and the kids got to play together. It is amazing to watch them all as they are all growing so fast. Especially Gracie. Everytime I see her she just gets bigger and bigger! I just love all my nieces and nephews to pieces! We also got to spend some time with our cousin Kim and her girls, Yvonne and Kayla. It is hard to believe how grown up they are becoming also. It was great to spend time with everybody!

Here are some pictures of our recent camping trip to Mounds. LeeAnn learned how to jump off the diving board. She is a little fish in the water!

My new job.

Well, I have almost made it through a week at work. I have not done to bad. I am really slow and have been getting off late but my boss is understanding of that and assures me that is okay. I am hoping that it works out because I think I will like it there. Most of the people there are really nice and have been very friendly to me. I really miss "the girls" from ES but I will hopefully make some new friends soon. I think this job has taught me a lesson too. I have always sat on the sidelines and watched life pass me by. I was never outgoing for fear of what??? Looking stupid? I don't know....but in this job I have had to just make myself do things that I normally am not comfortable doing. I am out of my comfort zone. I am learning that is a good thing. The anxiety is still there but gradually getting better. I am learning new things everyday and trying to find some confidence in myself. For all those who have prayed for me and encouraged me I thank you!